I remember when Kade was little, he loved dinosaurs. I mean, he LOVED dinosaurs. We frequented the natural history museum (that is now such a wistful place to be with my youngest), had many dinosaur books, and schooled the adults in his life on how to pronounce them.
I also remember when he read one of his childhood books, Dinosaur Roar, to his baby brother. Be still my beating heart!
Child of mine.
Before. I remember your overalls. And the yellow backhoe you loved so much you slept with. But most of all I remember this big beaming smile.
Later. I remember your soft shaggy hair. And your kookiness.
Love and miss you before and later.
I got up with the sun (and the son).
Unfortunately our eastern sky in Lone Tree CO was SOCKED IN at sunrise.
I like how today’s prompt is called Sunrise Ritual.
Ritual. It can be so comforting.
This morning’s ritual, the first day of Capture Your Grief, is a comfort to me.
I’m remembering several years, now, getting up on October 1st. Some mornings crisp, wearing Kade’s flannel. With intention, getting up in the dark, quietly getting my things, and driving to an expansive place where I could watch the sun crest.
I’ve actually been counting the days to Capture Your Grief this year. I think I crave structured outlet for my grief. It’s so easy to go along with my days and weeks and weekends; months and seasons; work, family, play; and not intentionally attend to my grief. To Kade. Opportunities like this help me drop in to my feelings. My soul. My spirit. My grief. My continuing relationship with my son.
I’ll sip my cafe latte and toast to the damp sunrise. Here’s to an October of capturing my grief.
And my love.
Capture Your grief is an expressive activity created by CarlyMarie, an artist and bereaved mom in Australia. She has a prompt for each day to take a photograph to capture your grief. When she posts her daily photo on Facebook, participants can comment with theirs.
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