I am participating in the Blogging from A to Z April Challenge. The goal is to publish one blog post a day for the month of April, except for Sunday, that corresponds with the day’s letter. I participated in 2016. That year I didn’t have a “theme” other than the general theme of my blog, honoring my son and my grief and healing journey. I enjoyed going back and re-reading my posts from the challenge, stoking my Kade memories.
I decided I will choose a theme for the challenge this time, beyond that of my blog. Recently I was given the assignment from my therapist to write about how my recent master’s degree experience has impacted my grief and my continuing bond with Kade. There you have it—my theme.
How my Recent Master’s Degree Experience has Impacted my Grief and my Continuing Bond with Kade
The word I’ll choose is ambivalent. I don’t believe I ever used this word, or knew its definition, before grad school. It means having two seemingly contrary beliefs, or feelings, at the same time. It’s BIG in counseling, mindfulness, and working toward being able to sit with difficult emotions.
I felt connected to Kade in my program with all I was learning and the program’s heavy self-reflection focus, and also disconnected from him (and my life) because I was so damned busy. I felt as if I remembered him more because I was experiencing class content that pertained to him, and also less because I made less devoted time for things like journaling and going to his memorial stone.
Ambivalent. I’m feeling ambivalent about the A to Z challenge right now. I’m anxious about my decision to participate, and I’m questioning this topic I chose, which is personal and a little abstract. And I’m happy I decided to participate to get me writing again, and to have completed my first entry.
4 thoughts on “blogging from a to z april challenge – a”
Great post 😁
It looks like you have chosen a really significant theme–in many ways. I like your definition of ambivalent, that word used to throw me. Kade probably knew what it meant. 😉
I’m glad you took the challenge Jenny. I think you will warm up to it quickly. Keep them short and don’t over-think it. Sending lots of love and light. On to B.
I was looking for your name on that sign and realized I have never once heard anyone call you Jennifer 😀
I would definitely make an appt with Jennifer Robbins though . She sounds like she knows what she’s doing .
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